I actually am happy today. I’ve been stable for more than a week, since I last posted during a bad episode. I’m stepping down off a mood stabilizer. I’ve had this before, when stepping down off medication, I start to feel normal, and then either start a new medication journey of side effects, or my ups and downs come back. But I have a week or so of good life in between. Odd. Neurobiology quirk, body’s relief of getting off of alien chemicals?
So, is this just another good week before it all goes to shit again, or am I turning a corner? I wasn’t happy with this mood stabilizer for the whole 6-9 months I’ve been on it, psych. kept saying “wait for it, wait for it.” But nothing. I’ll just be on anti-anxiety meds soon. Waiting to find out whether my diagnosis can be confirmed, changed again, or changed back to the original diagnosis.